Check - Up

Health is definitely one of the few possessions any person would cherish dearly in life and care for with utter attention. No one can feel your pain, ache or problem except you...and it is you, once feeling any unease, who decide it is time for a close check up...time for a doctor visit. It still amazes me is when some people recognize the pain, yet decide NOT to go to the doctor. You see them not feeling well, and they might even talk about the "not in shape mode", but still they resist the idea of a check up. Their reasoning in 90% most of the time "I know what I have, and I know what the doctor will tell me...he tells me the same every time..stop this and that, eat well, sleep well, change your lifestyle...I know it all!...Don't worry I ll do it myself." That's the moment they realize how a doctor visit induces a Reality check and a CALL for Commitment that some try avoiding under the pretentious reasoning of knowing it all...and a run-away from a sooner than later intervention...where a later intervention...might be just a little bit TOO late!

I admit I do the same with my heavenly Doctor...I shy away from sitting closely one to one with Him, allowing a needed check up. I might know what is going wrong in my veins of faith or my muscular tissues of inner peace, but still I prefer not to ask for this check up..as I just fear commitment, I fear Change I can't handle, I fear failing to follow His prescriptions......and to avoid it...I simply act "normal" and don't tell Him about it...Better keep it for myself..I know what He will tell me...!!

David knew the Heart of His creator..and knew that only Him, the Doctor of it all, can work His healing and show the way...He calls Him to test his heart..and thought:

 "Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." (Psalm 139:23-24 NIV)
اختَبِرني يا اللهُ واعرِفْ قَلبي. امتَحِنّي واعرِفْ أفكاري. وانظُرْ إنْ كانَ فيَّ طَريقٌ باطِلٌ، واهدِني طَريقًا أبديًّا. (139 المَزاميرُ:23-24 AVDDV)

Only then I realized a big difference: when one leaves the doctor clinic, he faces the change alone...and is asked to commit alone..a road that might seem tough..and better to avoid. While with HIM, we are never left alone...we leave His clinic with the promise and fact that He walks with us and talks with us..."You know when I sit down and when I get up. You know my thoughts from far away. You know where I go and where I lie down. You know everything I do. Lord, you know what I want to say, even before the words leave my mouth. Your Spirit is everywhere I go. I cannot escape your presence.You will take my hand and lead me. Your strong right hand will protect me". (Psalms 139:2-4, 7, 10 ERV) I thank you For showing me the way...for Saying I AM THE WAY..and FOR YOUR SPIRIT who makes my walk to healing a commitment..it makes it YOUR Commitment..and Unfailing commitment..and that's THE big difference!

Did you do your check-up lately? May be December is a good month...

I don't know that man!

What starts small, can grow bigger than your control.
On that special Holy Thursday, allow me to take you through an eye opening personal experience. It was on a rainy Saturday morning, stuck at home with the kids, i decided to fetch for my notebook to scribble down some thoughts. And the long searching started, going from my room up to the kitchen drawers...only to stop at the end by an innocent voice pointing me out to the balcony...! Here was my notebook, soaking up all the rain it could get like a thirsty camel! Angry me, got my notebook in and was waiting for some explanation...looking at these shameful eyes and trembling voice. Leila realized, after first drawing throughout few pages in my notebook, that she has done something i asked her not to do. Afraid of facing me with such an act, she decided to hide it out of my sight...may be i ll forget all about this notebook anyhow...and yes, that's where the balcony pops up again in the story..and you know the rest. I explained to her firmly yet in my arms that what started with "coloring" ended up in an "all wet" bigger problem..."two wrongs don't make it a right". All the Big wrongs have a small innocent beginning..yet allowed to grow.

Can't help not think about Peter on that tough Thursday night of trial:

But he denied it before them all. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said. He denied it again, with an oath: “I don’t know the man!” Then he began to call down curses, and he swore to them, “I don’t know the man!” Immediately a rooster crowed. (Matthew 26:70, 72, 74 NIV)

فأنكَرَ قُدّامَ الجميعِ قائلًا: «لستُ أدري ما تقولينَ!». فأنكَرَ أيضًا بقَسَمٍ: «إنّي لستُ أعرِفُ الرَّجُلَ!». فابتَدأَ حينَئذٍ يَلعَنُ ويَحلِفُ: «إنّي لا أعرِفُ الرَّجُلَ!». وللوقتِ صاحَ الدّيكُ. (مَتَّى 26:70, 72, 74)

It's been shocking to me seeing how a small denying lie was growing into swearing..then brutally transformed into cursing and insulting, yes, a disciple insulting. What? But how? This is Peter, the Rock..even a disciple as solid and bold as Peter was falling into the swirling growing sin effect. We always talk about Peter denying, but rarely think of him reaching a level of swearing and cursing. Oh God, how many times i have accepted a small drop of lie to end up in a pool of mud...yes, the flood always starts with a drop!

But that same Peter, experiencing the love of Christ, the forgiveness of His Heart, received the Holy Spirit who took him to a whole new level of authority. Not only he declared his faith but taught it to the multitude openly and got 3000 on his first big public speech! Wow...this is a Turn-Around as defined. From denying You in front of a slave to fishing 3000 souls.

Dear Jesus, i thank you for praying strength over the faith of Peter, for knowing that he will go through tough times, but yet you saw him growing out of it triumphant and leading “Satan has asked to test you men like a farmer tests his wheat. O Simon, Simon (Peter), I have prayed that you will not lose your faith!” (Luke 22:31, 32 ERV) I thank you that when times of trial hit us, we know that you sent us strength to fight this drop of sin through the power of your Holy Spirit in us. Amen!

Enjoy His loving forgiveness on that day and everyday!